I was so scared to talk about being transgender, with anyone, and coming out and admitting it so early to someone left me oversensitive, and then I withdrew, tried to feminize myself, and though I was happy... I wasn't really me.
And then one conversation, one half-arguement about it, and I recognize my oversensitivity and all of a sudden I'm 1000x more confident. I feel good. I suppose it's time for a life post, then. God. I hate this.
Okay, as most of you reading my journal know, I am an FtM transgender, a Transman
. For the uninformed, that means I my sex
is female while my gender
is male. Or at least I think so. To quote my girlfriend: "So you're genderqueer, so what?"
I've recently been attempting to 'pass' full time. Like, everyday. Packing, binding...It's weird. I have quite the morning ritual now, but I'm working on making it less a ritual and more just...waking up. :] Things are getting easier. Way easier. I mean, I dunno. I wanna talk about it, but even as a Transman myself, I don't know much.
Well, I guess that's all.